Arbit...

I was just looking through my earlier posts and realized that I have been writing a lot abt myself lately.Hmm.. I was getting too ethnocentric as the greeks would have put it..So I decided it was time for a thinker like me to enlighten you mere mortals with some words of wisdom :D

Does God exist? A question that has always bothered me...

My parents aren't particularly religious. Though mum always makes sure that we follow all the proper rituals on festivals. Silly as some of these customs may seem ,but after all you are interacting with the President of the Universe ,and you need some protocol:D
But I never felt the presence of God during these sessions. You know you think about God only when you are very sad or very happy.Both have happened with me and both the times I Felt God.
Once was when I was standing all alone on the terrace one day after rains .Everything looked so clean, smelled so pure, divine...The sky was a lovely purple,leaves all bright and green, children playing football, white little birds flying around...And then I thought how small man really is and yes, also how big... That day I could almost feel God watching .Thats the closest I hav got to him.
Another was when I learnt at 10:00 in the night that we had some exam the next day.Makes me laugh now to think about it:) but come on , I was just 11 then and this news threw me into extreme nbd. I dint tell anybody about it .I tried studying for the exam but culdnt concentrate and then I just closed the book and prayed hard , with all my heart,to God to sumhow tide me over. You can only imagine the relief, the gratitude I felt the next day, when school was cancelled due to excessive rains...
But to say that God exists is infinitely more frightening. Most of us think him to be some kind of super human being and thats it . We are happy with that image.But that may not be true.What does he look like ? Forget abt it ...does even the concept of image have any meaning in front of him ? Is he solid , liquid , gas? Can he see, hear ,smell? Do u see that these human characteristics loose all meaning before Him ? Then what is He??? It is a very bothersome question .Think seriously about it and before long you will find yourself really frustrated .
The modern scientific community has wisely kept its mouth shut over this topic. Some early philosophers have said that the concept of God is hardwired in our brain. But then is it only humans ? What abt cats ,dogs ,cows ? I dont think they hav any comprehension of what God is . Then what abt apes? If they also are not blessed with this ability ,then the theory seems a bit too human centred. Why such a quantum jump in thinking capability from apes to humans? Makes Darwins theory of slow and steady evolution look unconvincing...

Ok so after all that roundabout, merry go rounds ,the point that I wanted to tell you was that I do believe in a supreme someone.One who is above all, all and all...He is undefinable but he makes things happen. He is not physical but he affects the physical world.It is seriously very comforting to believe in God.So may be he is just another defensive mechanism of the brain.But I know one thing for sure and that is that he does listen to you, if you pray hard, real hard, with all you heart.

Phew..............

Finally finally finally.....the storm has passed and I am flooded by that wonderful feeling once again... Guess what? ENDSEMS OVER ! And that means a month of complete freedom ..... God knows I deserved this...:D
This was a sem of changes ... my room changed , my roomie changed, my friends changed , and moreover I changed.. and a lot at that....
The sem started off with a bang , earlier for me than for most. Ok I guess its about time to tell you all my side of the saga....
I was held guilty of putting proxy in a class and was DACed !!! You wuld think it to be the height of irony for me to be punished for getting a proxy done when its so easy to see that each and every IITian puts proxies daily...and I was among the moooooooooooost regular ones.... :(( :((
Well I was a little less mature then and I was naturally most upset over this.. Let me make it clear to you that the punishment itself was no problem (which involved teaching english to drop-outs). But the fact that I got a punishment was tormenting me lik anything..I dont know but I felt so lost then...It just was'nt fair...not fair at all.....
On the flip side this incident helped me grow. Mebbe it was a blessing in disguise. I know I culd'nt have done it without the help of my sister and parents but in the end my perseverance paid off..I was condoned and held " not guilty" ..aaah..one of the happiest moments of my life:)
Again, problems were far from over for me...I had to put up some fight to keep a ground floor room.. I and vandu were being forced to shift to the second floor. I refused and once again my resilience paid off...[:D]
So this is what I have concluded that you HAVE to put in a Fight( a fight with a capital F ) for a thing you want . Only then will you get it. Only thing important is for you to decide how badly you want a thing. Also if you can visualize urself not getting the thing , then believe me you never will get it. Life is long with many ups and downs but if there were not any downs we wuld'nt appreciate the ups all that much , right?
Actually gotta loads to tell u all..but i have also learned not to tell everyone everything .. so sorry [:d]

Here's a pic taken on department dheench day (heard that blogs with pics receive more hits :P )